First Thoughts

Have you ever wondered about the first thoughts? No, not of Adam, but of the One who came before him. Orthodox theology posits a timeless communion between the Trinity before the creation of time, but I wonder if this is correct, or merely the effluent of the philosophical ideals of yesteryear.

What would it truly be like, to exist alone, before all thought, before all of the language and categories that make up or thought, that we take for granted? Today, I'm going to try and plum the depths of pre-time and put forward a possible answer. Hopefully this will inspire wiser, more intelligent minds to do the same.

Presumably the first thought was a self awareness. "I am". With nothing else to act upon Him, the only thing that could act in God was Himself. Mind you, I don't actually suggest a vocalized "I am" but more a feeling of sentience, an awareness, a feeling.  Without sensory organs or a concept of the other, the void would not yet come into contemplation.

The next thought, I would guess, would be "what?" What is this Me that exists? What does it do? What are it's powers, what is its extent? All of these, but undifferentiated and without, at this time, any knowledge of the metrics by which such a thing could be measured.

I imagine that "what" would be frustrating. There is nothing else in the universe, just the two states of abiding and questioning. This leads us to the third concept "difference". There is a difference between "I am" and "I am what". Things are not always the same.

From difference, from the movement of thought,  comes change, and from change time.

The next step is the combination of difference and "I am" written in our language as, "Is there anything else?" Without sensory inputs, this is not that easy a question to answer. I would guess that the answer would not be found in thought but in exhausted silence. There, having the knowledge of existence, the question, and difference, the silence without thought would be recognized as the void.

Difference plus the void generates creation. By thinking, God fills the void, He imposes change outward. Now He can say "what?" plus creation, and begin to examine all of the possibilities. He is no longer bound by what is, but only by what could possibly be. So from nothingness, we have come to limitless creation.(At least I think, please poke holes in this theory in the comments below. ;-) )